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Ystd night, i had a special happy dream. Its been long since i've had one.
I dreamt we went to fly a kite together at a secret beach in sg, under the blue sky, with our fav food. You wore your fav polo shirt, with your funky sunglasses. We were running on the golden sand, with the wind in our hair. You had one hand in mine, and the other flying the kite high in the sky. I woke up this morning smiling, bursting with happiness inside. Just when i thought you were slowly fading from my memory, that dream was a reminder that you will always be alive in my heart.
Its 4am and we're thousands of miles apart but i'm hoping we're sharing the same stars, cos there's a super bright one tonight and i'm hoping you're making the same wish as I am. You're closer to the stars then i am, so i guess you get a better view huh:)
I know i shouldn't be selfish but i'm hoping i get a special happy dream tonight and every night from now on:))))))
Hey there sad eyes
What's on your mind
Don't look so down
Give it some time
You don't have to be
So hard on yourself
I know the world can be a brutal place
Please don't let it steal your smile away
Let those tears fall
You gave it your all
That's all you can do
I'll be here for you
There's go your pride
Crushed on the ground
Sometimes it takes a wall to tumble down
For you to see who's gonna stick around
Cause when the sky is darkest
You can see the stars
When you fall the hardest
You find how strong you are
Sometimes it gets worst before it gets better
And it takes so much to be brave
Sometimes you're afraid it'll hurt forever
But when all the lights begin to fade
Close your eyes
And rest awhile
It's been a long, long day
Come on baby, baby
Have a little Faith
So come on baby, baby
Have a little faith when hope is slipping away, or when im feeling down,i rmb this song you told me about,
and then i rmb you reminding me: faith>fear!
and for that moment, i smile unknowingly.
- Music:Faith - Jordin Sparks
My life is like a dark tunnel. A really really dark tunnel. So dark it scares me sometimes.
Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside.
i think my heart has already made a choice. but im scared of retaining,i'm scared of being alone,i'm scared of every single fucking thing that's gonna happen.i wish i wasn't me.i wish i were everything i'm not.i wish i could talk to you about the shit things in my fucked-up life):fuck wishes,they never come true.
Faith is that light in your heart that keeps on shining even when it's all darkness outside.
i think my heart has already made a choice. but im scared of retaining,i'm scared of being alone,i'm scared of every single fucking thing that's gonna happen.i wish i wasn't me.i wish i were everything i'm not.i wish i could talk to you about the shit things in my fucked-up life):fuck wishes,they never come true.
- Mood:
confused
2 teeth extracted, 2 more to go.
stitch in mouth.non-stop bleeding, swollen mouth.
it hurts so fucking bad.
)))))))))))))))))))))))))):
when will things in my life start to get better?
sometimes i cant help but ask, why me? why must the worst things always happen to me?
do you really hate me that much God? why me?!?!?!?!?! im rlly such a fucked up bitch.
stitch in mouth.non-stop bleeding, swollen mouth.
it hurts so fucking bad.
)))))))))))))))))))))))))):
when will things in my life start to get better?
sometimes i cant help but ask, why me? why must the worst things always happen to me?
do you really hate me that much God? why me?!?!?!?!?! im rlly such a fucked up bitch.
super duper awesome day ystd:) full outing soon!!:D
i cant imagine what my life would be like if i didn't have friends like you all.
i hope that 40 years later, we'll still be bff, meeting up veryveryvery often:D
i'm really thankful for every single one of you:)
thank you, it was something i really wanted to do for years.
i dont know why, but when i went back there,
that tree, that gate, that swing, those familiar faces. i became overwhelmed with diff emotions.
sad, because many things changed.
the wall i painted tgt with dad,the once pretty welcome sign,grandma's fav plant, were all gone.
happy, mostly. happy to breathe in the air where happiness was family being together as one.
happy to share my once magical happiness with you.
happy to taste nothing but happiness.
it felt like that happiness i had in my heart today could last forever.
thank you for everything, i really owe you too much.
we're moving on, but this time, we could last forever. our friendship will last forever.
sentosa with chics tmr, another day of happiness:)
- Mood:
peaceful
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!♥♥♥♥
sick for the whole hols, couldnt even study.
i'm prepared for the worst, think i know what to expect alr.
nothing ever goes right in my life, ever.
fmfl.
i dont wanna disappoint my mum,and my dad in heaven. i've alr let them down so many times. but this time, i rlly cant help it. im sorry mum and dad, sorry in advance.
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i'm prepared for the worst, think i know what to expect alr.
nothing ever goes right in my life, ever.
fmfl.
i dont wanna disappoint my mum,and my dad in heaven. i've alr let them down so many times. but this time, i rlly cant help it. im sorry mum and dad, sorry in advance.
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i still remember, every single day we spent as one.
how do i forget,
when things remind me of you everywhere i go.
how do i let go.
when i think of you every single day.
teach me how to forget pain,
teach me how to forget all i once had.
i'll give my all just to spend one more day with you.
just one more day, one hour, one minute, just one glimpse of you.
teach me how do i keep you alive in my heart.
i've gotta be strong.
i miss you daddy, so much that its killing me inside.
pretty fireworks:D
red wine, red faces. im a lousy drinker-.-
we all became pretty red and went crazy fighting among ourselves including the adults. hahaha.
blacked out for awhile and crapped loads of nonsense lols.
but it was super duper goooood. its like a brainwash, you get to drink all your troubles down.
everything's good now, i've swallowed all my troubles down, and threw all the memories outta my pea brain.
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It's twelve o' clock and i need your attention
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum, the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless 'til i wake tomorrow
And if tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it
I'll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that i was meant to say
-vegas skies
red wine, red faces. im a lousy drinker-.-
we all became pretty red and went crazy fighting among ourselves including the adults. hahaha.
blacked out for awhile and crapped loads of nonsense lols.
but it was super duper goooood. its like a brainwash, you get to drink all your troubles down.
everything's good now, i've swallowed all my troubles down, and threw all the memories outta my pea brain.
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It's twelve o' clock and i need your attention
It's like the alcohol making my head spin
Your scent is the rum, the room is a bottle
Keeping me hopeless 'til i wake tomorrow
And if tonight ever makes a difference
The way that I feel the way that I'll remember it
I'll take this down until the glass remains
Swallow the words that i was meant to say
-vegas skies
- Mood:
drunk - Music:vegas skies
stainless steel. stronger than ever.
you're so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal.
you're so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal.
get well soon ben. pls dont let it be h1n1. i dont wanna get quarantined-.-
everything's going wrong.
nothing seems right.
bad luck,bad brains,bad day,everything sucks.
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whyyyyyyyyyy?????
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what hurts the most, is being so close.
And having so much to say,
And watching you walk away,
and never knowing what could have been.
And not seeing that loving you,
is what i was trying to do.
everything's going wrong.
nothing seems right.
bad luck,bad brains,bad day,everything sucks.
))))))))))))))))))))))):
whyyyyyyyyyy?????
)))))))))))))))))))))))):
what hurts the most, is being so close.
And having so much to say,
And watching you walk away,
and never knowing what could have been.
And not seeing that loving you,
is what i was trying to do.
- Mood:
frustrated
food hunting/shopping in the day at bugis with you totally brightened up my moody morning(:
had 2h outing/dinner at astons in the evening too:D
& HP after that with pau,niche,szy,cy:D:D:D ty to szuyee for waking me up when i dozed off for 5 mins hahaha. emma watson damn pretty! but daniel radcliffe was zzzzz LOL. the movie not bad but ended at like 12am cos we watched the 930pm one LOL.
AND WTH WE MISSED THE LAST TRAIN BY 1 FREAKING MINUTE!!!!T.T we ran for nth la hahahaha
BUTBUTBUT THE GOOD THING WAS THAT WE GOT TO TAKE A LORRY RIDE!
OMG FREAKING NICEEEEEEEE. i wanna take it everyday hehehehehe. omg the cool midnight breeze against our skin was seriously awesome ttm. haha we kept screaming cos we felt like we were going to get blown off any moment LOL.
reached home at 1am lols.damn tiredddd tmr still need to do cip early in the morning T.T
i had so much fun today and i couldnt stop smilinggggggggg all dayyyyyyyyy:D:D:D:D
could days like this last forever and ever and ever and ever?!:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
- Mood: happy
i love the rain. it makes me smile in my sleep. makes me so happy that i overslept and was late for school by 2 hours-.-
i think i've become numb to almost everything. so numb that i think i've given up on studies and everything else.
so has my heart. i think. it has become so numb i like it the way it is now.
i wish it could rain all day. so i can at least be happy in my sleep while it rains and never have to wake up and never have to go to school.
i wish it could rain when i want it to. so it can wash away the tears that will fall once my numb heart feels the pain.
i think i've become numb to almost everything. so numb that i think i've given up on studies and everything else.
so has my heart. i think. it has become so numb i like it the way it is now.
i wish it could rain all day. so i can at least be happy in my sleep while it rains and never have to wake up and never have to go to school.
i wish it could rain when i want it to. so it can wash away the tears that will fall once my numb heart feels the pain.
- Mood:
numb
thank you verawwwwwn:D
omg i am supersupersuper(x1000000000000)touched by the gift
i read and read and read again and again, and i couldn't stop laughing and crying
it really brought back all the super fun & nice memories we had tgt. omg i suck i couldnt stop crying. zzzz
hahahha i rllyrllyrlly love it alotalotalot!!!!
THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH VERON!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS FOREVER AND EVER!!!I MISS YOU LOADSSSS MEET UP REAL SOON!!!!!
FUCK YOU JOYLYNN NG YOU ARE SO GOING TO FUCKING RETAIN.FML
omg i am supersupersuper(x1000000000000)touched by the gift
i read and read and read again and again, and i couldn't stop laughing and crying
it really brought back all the super fun & nice memories we had tgt. omg i suck i couldnt stop crying. zzzz
hahahha i rllyrllyrlly love it alotalotalot!!!!
THANK YOU SOSOSOSOSOSO MUCH VERON!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS FOREVER AND EVER!!!I MISS YOU LOADSSSS MEET UP REAL SOON!!!!!
FUCK YOU JOYLYNN NG YOU ARE SO GOING TO FUCKING RETAIN.FML
why are ice-creams so fattening?damn ittttt))))))))))))):
but it makes me happy))): food always makes me happy.
arghhhh must.stop.eating.so.muchhhhhh))))):
& happy bday seewei! hehehe i love you ah wei!!:D:D
Happy father's day daddy.You're always in my heart no matter what. And you're always the brightest shining star in the sky, just so i can see you before i sleep every night.Tonight, that star is shining especially brightly.Happy father's day daddy,ily always.
tired from ystd & today. tiring, but fun(((((:
"studied" with sop at pp in the afternoon, disaster haircut in the morning. zzzzz.
bladed from 8pm-12am at ecp with dinner at lagoon in between:D:D:D:D:D
the night view & the wind at night is simply breathtaking
we bladed, talked, watched the big orange moon, counted the shining stars, laughed at many stupid things etcetc.
we had fun ttm, like there was no tomorrow. i swear we could have bladed all the way to the next morning hehehe.
sop, im really thankful for a friend like you:) you really make me laugh like an idiot, you make me happy, you can read my mind,you're really awesome. next friday night! i'll persuade my mum to let me stayover:D we'll blade till our feet drop off hahahhaa. i love you sop!:D
p.s i swear im going to force you to share the chicken wings and satay next lagoon dinner hehehehehehhe:D:D:D cant waitttttttttttttt:D:D
shopped with mum for 11hours today at vivo. and we only covered the 1st level.
hahha omg we're really damn lousy shoppers hahahha.
manymany triple quadruple chins from lunch & dinner hahaha. omg.must.stop.eating.so.much.everytime.i.g
really effective retail & food therapy with mum hahahaha:D
omg im really damn happpyyyyyyyyyy from ystd & today. i wish every single day of my life could be like that.
i swear i didnt stop smiling the whole of ystd & today(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
going to camp tmr): im hoping i made the right choice.
i hope i dont die there.
im going to miss alot of things & ppl.
you seem to have forgot everything. you never fail to disappoint, every single time.
you left, just as quickly as how you came.
argh whatever, im going to use the 4days of camp to forget everything.
to stop hoping when its not going to be possible. i should've known from the start.
why are you so stupid, yet again, joylynn?!
pain, that's what you get for letting your heart win.
this is goodbye. its going to be real pain. should've known better.
"studied" with sop at pp in the afternoon, disaster haircut in the morning. zzzzz.
bladed from 8pm-12am at ecp with dinner at lagoon in between:D:D:D:D:D
the night view & the wind at night is simply breathtaking
we bladed, talked, watched the big orange moon, counted the shining stars, laughed at many stupid things etcetc.
we had fun ttm, like there was no tomorrow. i swear we could have bladed all the way to the next morning hehehe.
sop, im really thankful for a friend like you:) you really make me laugh like an idiot, you make me happy, you can read my mind,you're really awesome. next friday night! i'll persuade my mum to let me stayover:D we'll blade till our feet drop off hahahhaa. i love you sop!:D
p.s i swear im going to force you to share the chicken wings and satay next lagoon dinner hehehehehehhe:D:D:D cant waitttttttttttttt:D:D
shopped with mum for 11hours today at vivo. and we only covered the 1st level.
hahha omg we're really damn lousy shoppers hahahha.
manymany triple quadruple chins from lunch & dinner hahaha. omg.must.stop.eating.so.much.everytime.i.g
really effective retail & food therapy with mum hahahaha:D
omg im really damn happpyyyyyyyyyy from ystd & today. i wish every single day of my life could be like that.
i swear i didnt stop smiling the whole of ystd & today(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
going to camp tmr): im hoping i made the right choice.
i hope i dont die there.
im going to miss alot of things & ppl.
you seem to have forgot everything. you never fail to disappoint, every single time.
you left, just as quickly as how you came.
argh whatever, im going to use the 4days of camp to forget everything.
to stop hoping when its not going to be possible. i should've known from the start.
why are you so stupid, yet again, joylynn?!
pain, that's what you get for letting your heart win.
this is goodbye. its going to be real pain. should've known better.
- Mood: confused
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRYL!!!!
haha tho you always bully us and you're damn retarded, but we still love you for who you are:D
stay pretty, tall, skinny ( wl win alr lo) HAHAHA & hope you like your surprise & what we bought for you:D
we love you loads always:D:D
haha tho you always bully us and you're damn retarded, but we still love you for who you are:D
stay pretty, tall, skinny ( wl win alr lo) HAHAHA & hope you like your surprise & what we bought for you:D
we love you loads always:D:D